Eidul Milad......Isnin wa arbaiinn.......

Happy birthday to me,

Happy birthday to me,

Happy birthday, happy birthday,

Happy birthday to meeeeee.....

My age ??? Tak rahsia...... 24.....eh.. eh......42.... tuanya rasa.

Alhamdulillah, I'm so much grateful to Allah Rabbul Jalil kerana masih dapat bernafas di bumi Allah dengan segala limpahan kurniaanNya.

What else yang mahu dipinta.....panjang kan usia agar dapat menjadi hambaMu yang bertaqwa sehingga ke denyutan nadi yang terakhir, InsyaAllah.

Millions of thanx to all my family members samada yang ada di amman or not for the bday wishes, bday party (celebrated last night ) and bday presents. Luv u all guys.....

( I decided to open my blog for comments to mark my 42nd bday and my new template !!)

Pics of Syria....

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I was quite busy yesterday with an early morning rush to mimi and izzat's school to settle this sem's school fees and was shocked to hear the crying voice of mimi when she refused to get into her school bus ... I just 'passed' her to her teacher...off she went....this morning no more cries.. cos she's been on holidays for almost 3 weeks....

Then,I went to Al mawed travel agency to get sumayyah's ticket refund since she won't be able to come back this year ..not enough holidays...then got to the housing bank to pay my house rent and sent the ticket refund money to sumayyah via western union.

Bought some stuff on my way home and did some cooking cos adam and the gang of 6 from mu'tah called me last night to tell me that they are coming late in the evening . They came to amman for their outing. I prepared mee bandung, popia, yogurt+fruit pudding . They brought a moist chocolate cake and bread pudding .

Then a group of girls(syidah and 5 others )from mutah who came to amman to buy some books spent their night at my house since it was already late to get back to mu'tah.

Alhamdulillah everything went truly fine.....still another day to come.......

Syria......We'll be back, InsyaAllah.

Perjalanan ke Syria( dengan Damascus sebagai ibu negara yang mempunyai 8 juta penduduk) minggu lalu menambah lagi pengalaman berada di negara timur tengah. Syria merupakan sebuah yang merdeka dan ekonominya tidak bergantung kepada negara barat. Negara yang kaya dengan hasil tanaman berunsur makanan serta buah-buahan memungkin rakyatnya dapat hidup dengan hasil dari dalam negara sendiri. Oleh itu tidak hairan syria tidak tunduk dengan tekanan kuasa-kuasa besar dunia.Kilang pembuatan dan pengeluar bahan makanan dan keperluan harian terdapat begitu banyak di syria dan harga barangan agak murah berbanding Jordan. Perniagaan berasaskan industri kecil masih memainkan peranan yang utama sekaligus dapat menjana pendapatan rakyat secara samarata. Berbeza dengan Jordan yang meletakkan US sebagai 'kiblat' utama dengan pelbagai barangan yang dijual datang dari negara uncle sam itu, suasana di syria amat berbeza. Tiada kelihatan fastfood outlets seperti McDonald, pizza hut, KFC, Burger King ,Popeye's dan lain-lain di sana.

Syria merupakan syurga membeli-belah dengan harga barangan terutama textile amat berpatutan. Souq Hamidiah di Damascus dan Souq Halab di Halab/Aleppo (6juta penduduk di halab )yang mempunyai ribuan kedai (memang boleh sesat dibuatnya ) benar-benar menawarkan barangan yang made in syria dengan harga murah.Rasanya ramai pelancong dari malaysia yang bershopping di pasar aleppo kerana kami terjumpa kedai kain tudung seperti dalam gambar di bawah (iklan in BM )

Sistem yang diguna pakai ialah setiap lorong menawarkan barangan yang sama contohnya jika lorong itu menjual pakaian , semua kedai di lorong tersebut hanya menjual pakaian. Terasa benar yang setiap penjual benar-benar tawakkal dan redha dengan rezeki masing-masing yang Allah telah tetapkan untuk setiap hambaNya. Jika di malaysia perniagaan didominasi oleh satu kaum sahaja dan bangsa melayu beragama islam selalunya dikatakan tidak pandai berniaga, tetapi suasana di negara arab seperti syria dan jordan menyangkal pendapat orang islam tidak pandai berniaga. Rata-rata semua penjual di sini adalah bangsa arab beragama islam(segelintirnya kristian ). Sewaktu menziarahi Bosra iaitu tempat di mana Rasulullah saw singgah sewaktu dibawa oleh bapa saudaranya Abu Talib berdagang ke syam sewaktu baginda masih kecil, hati terasa sayu apabila mengenangkan begitu jauh perjalanan baginda semata-mata membawa hasil dagangan dan baginda memang amat terkenal sebagai a very successful businessman dan islam amat menggalakkan umatnya berkecimpung dalam bidang perniagaan.

Selain sebagai pusat membeli-belah, syria jugak terkenal dengan begitu banyak kesan sejarah para anbiya' yang masih terpelihara sehingga kini. Maqam para nabi yang dilawati saban hari terutama maqam nabi yahya (hanya kepala baginda) yang terletak di dalam masjid umawi di damascus mencetuskan rasa sayu tatkala terkenang bagaimana baginda dibunuh ketika berdakwah risalah tauhid.Begitu juga sayu semasa menziarahi maqam panglima perang khalid al walid di Homs. Saifullah gelaran diberi kepadanya yang berjuang sehingga terdapat puluhan tikaman pedang di seluruh tubuh beliau .Walaupun begitu beliau tidak mati di medan perang . Masjid di mana jasad khalid al walid di maqamkan masih subur dengan nur islam kerana sehingga kini masih terdapat pusat pengajian tahfiz al quran di dalam masjid itu sendiri.Selain itu terdapat maqam para sahabah serta maqam isteri serta saudara-mara nabi muhammad saw di sekitar Damascus dan Halab.Ini adalah disebabkan pusat pemerintahan Islam ditukarkan ke tanah syam semasa zaman khulafah ar rasyidin.

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Satu pemandangan yang tidak dapat dielakkan semasa menziarahi maqam saudara-mara rasulullah saw terutama yang ada berkaitan sayyidina ali, kelihatan begitu ramai pengikut syi'ah yang datang menziarahi dengan perlakuan yang 'over' seperti meratap/meraung/menyapu-nyapu besi maqam/ikat tali di maqam dan lain-lain perbuatan yang membuatkan hati tertanya-tanya ..adakah perlakuan sebegitu terdapat di dalam ajaran mazhab syiah itu sendiri. Masjid Saidah zainab di damascus dibiayai sepenuhnya oleh kerajaan iran dengan kubahnya diperbuat daripada emas tulin. Maqam saidah Zainab dihiasi dengan intan berlian bergemerlapan(tidak dibenarkan bergambar di sini ). Rata-rata pengunjung adalah datangnya dari Iran dan iraq yang berfahaman syi'ah. kami diingatkan agar berhati-hati semasa membeli barangan seperti al quran di sini kerana dikhuatiri mempunyai unsur-unsur syiah yang mempunyai sebanyak 120 surah di dalam quran mereka.

Secara keseluruhan lawatan ke syria kali ini bukanlah yang terakhir kerana masih terlalu banyak tempat sejarah yang masih belum kami terokai . Tinggal di bumi anbiya' merupakan bonus kepada kami menyelusuri jejak para nabi serta sahabat demi memantapkan aqidah sebagai umat manusia yang mentauhidkan Allah menuju alam kekal abadi, InsyaAllah.

Jutaan terima kasih kepada anakanda zaid dan sahabatnya hazimin yang berjaya menganjurkan satu perjalanan yang amat bermakna buat kami sekeluarga. Semoga perjalanan ini diberkati Allah .Amin.

One thing for sure.........Syria, we'll be back, InsyaAllah.

From Urdun to Suria.....

Just arrived from Syria (in Arabic Suria )9.30pm last night...5days full of excitement...from amman-irbid-ramtha-darr'a-busra-damascus-homs-hama-halab-old damascus-zabadani-saad-nawa.

What more can I say, 19 of us from Jordan(in Arabic Urdun ) ,sampai dah tak larat nak heret kaki menjejaki maqam para anbiya' dan sahabat nabi saw serta other historical places dari utara ke selatan syria.

We had a chance to visit these places:

* Di Bosra -ziarah Rom teater terbesar di timur tengah

* Di Bosra - masjid Mabrak an-naqah-tempat persinggahan Rasulullah berdagang

* Di Homs- ziarah maqam-maqam khalid al walid, khalifah umar abd aziz, kaab bin ahbar, ubaidillah dan abdullah ibn jaafar at-tayyar.

* Di Hama - Melawat Kincir Air Lama ( Noria), Castle ibn Wardan, Beehive house.

* Di Halab - Souq Halab, masjid lama dan kota lama halab, maqam nabi khidir, maqam, nabi ibrahim, istana salahuddin al ayubi, masjid umawi halab, maqam nabi zakaria, kesan tapak kaki rasulullah saw di masjid karimiyyah.

* Di Damascus - maqam habil di zabadani, maqam saidah zainab, maqam para sahabat di bab saghir, masjid umawi, maqam nabi yahya, maqam salehuddin al ayubi, muaz bin jabal, abi darda', souq hamidiah,kota lama damsyiq, muzium negara syria, masjid tekiyah suleimeniyah.

* Di Syeikh Saad - ziarah maqam nabi ayub, maqam saad bib ubaidah al ansari.

* Di Nawa - ziarah maqam imam nawawi.

Even though this is my third time visiting syria there are still many other historical places have yet to be explored....next time InsyaAllah.

I enjoyed the beautiful/ not so beautiful sceneries along the way...from baldy-rocky mountains to green- bushy- grass and lucky us to have visited maqam Habil (anak nabi Adam ) which was located on top of the white-snowcapped mountain ( rasa macam kat alps je ! )

I was also glad to have met my ex-students who are studying in damascus who came to see me at my hotel ...nakaie , abidah ,aiman, asma, khair...tq for coming . InsyaAllah I'll come back next time just to be with all of them (18 of them altogether).

(Photos zaid saved dalam his laptop dan bawa balik ke mu'tah. InsyaAllah this monday I post them in my blog.)

Alhamdulillah the trip was safe and full of excitement ....everything went smoothly. I'm beginning to admire Suria more than before and maybe if I stay a bit longer I'm sure Syria might become my next home away from home....

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This afternoon my darling hubby will be going back to UAE.....April pulak cuti...goodbye dear darling....(nak pergi jalan mana april ni ???? )

For the sake of A BAG....

Three days ago, Royal Jordanian Air Kargo dept called me to go and fetch my bag which I sent thru ABDA agency at KLIA last week.I had excess baggage which Etihad wanted me to pay more than RM1300(almost same as my return trip air ticket !! )which I refused to pay. I chose ABDA air kargo instead(paid only Rm300 , saved RM 1000) to send my bag back here in amman. Since jordan has no house mailing address because they don't have postmen , ABDA could only send my bag to the kargo terminal at the airport.


The RJ officer who called me briefly told me how to get to the air kargo terminal . I went there the next day by renting a car because i could feel it's gonna be quite a difficult procedure ahead at the terminal. Zaid was not around so I asked brother sharul to come with us to the airport ( need a person who speaks arabic !! )Off we went at 9.30am and when we reached the security check point, we were told that the air kargo was at terminal 2. When we were at terminal 2, the person incharged told us that the air kargo was at a different location, it's about 4 km from the airport. Oh boy, it is somewhere in the middle of the desert and had to go thru a very strict security check up, had to leave my ID. Only sharul and I (since the bag is under my name ) could enter the area, but without transport cos ours is a rented car.Luckily a man in a mercedes who works in the terminal invited us to come with him . We couldn't walk because the air kargo terminal is like 3km ahead(tak nampak pun lagi bangunannya daripada balai pengawal ).

We had to go thru another check point before seeing a huge warehouse and an office building. The man then asked us to go to the first floor and I was surprised to see many people up there, it looked so busy with small path in between offices, ( macam balai berita pun ada ). But, it wasn't the right place. The man then told us to go to the ground floor and it was then an arab uncle offered to help us ... I couldn't remember how many offices and counters we'd gone thru but more than 13 places with 3 times going down the same staircases and back and forth the stuffy/smokey/filed loaded offices and I WAS THE ONLY LADY around the building.

The offices look like JPJ counters in the 70s/80s .At one counter the staff just threw the file to the customer after the transaction done. so rude !!!I told sharul the officer at ABDA had reminded me twice to have a man's name to fetch the bag but I told him that my son zaid wouldn't be around and I wasn't sure when the bag would arrive(takut nanti my hubby pun dah balik abu dhabi baru beg sampai!! ) Now I know why he wanted me to have a man's name on my bag.

When we finally got our bag at the air kargo warehouse(memang kena pergi sampai gudang tu sendiri..) they checked my bag which was only full of dried food, they only 'touched' a bit and closed it back. It wasn't finished yet, still a few more offices and counters to before the clearance is done. One thing for sure no bribery at all, all I had to pay was the 'longgggg processing' fees JD6 .At the warehouse I could see all boxes and packages were thoroughly opened and checked, each and every single shirt was marked(maybe for business merchandise). They really did their job.

Finally after 2 hours in the air kargo area I got my bag passed the last security check and I could breathe the fresh/cool/cold air again.THen the uncle asked for his service charge. He wanted JD10 but sharul said something and he then asked for only JD 5 ( worth it, kalau nak urus sendiri memang I tinggalkan aje beg tu kat situ ) One more problem...how to get to the first check point to get to our car...that uncle helped us again and there's a truck driver who was on his way out agreed to let us join his truck. I hopped onto the truck and had to sit next to the driver and sharul(terpaksa nak buat camne ! )

We reached the security checkpoint at 12.23pm and alhamdulillah I got my bag and had a very 'interesting/challenging' experience...IT'S ALL FOR THE SAKE OF A BAG.


Next time kalau nak hantar barang satu kontena baru I guna ABDA heheheh..........

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Tomorrow we are going on a JELAJAH SYRIA trip for 5 days. Till then have a nice weekend ahead.......

Sembang-sembang. ...Makan-makan

Tengah hari ni we all buat small party just nak jumpa dan bersama dengan pelajar-pelajar di amman. kesemua yang dijemput iaitu 16 of them including 5 kids hadir . My darling hubby pun ada , so senang urusan nak jemput all guys yang baru dan lama. Ada tiga graduate students yang baru sampai dan akan mulakan pengajian di U of Jordan starting next week. Welcome to amman !!

KAmi sediakan jamuan ringan sebab party at 3pm, so kami serve them with chicken/beef satay + nasi impit + kuah kacang , bubur jagung+kidney beans+ sweet potatoes, margarita pizza,chocolate chip cookies, bul-bul ( syrian halawiyat),fruits and juice.

Seronok dapat jumpa , sembang-sembang, makan-makan sampai maghrib. Lepas solat maghrib berjemaah baru semuanya selesai.Mungkin April berjumpa semula semasa my hubby pulang bercuti nanti. Setiap kali my hubby is back here, I memang adakan jamuan jemput sahabat-sahabat di amman, just nak berkumpul bersama. So, ada this ustaz bergurau waktu nak balik , " macam tu kami doakan abang nuar ( my hubby ) kerap balik, dapat makan-makan lagi ...."

Safe & Sound Amman

Amman can be considered as my hometown since I love living and spending my daily life here. Although it is not as beautiful as my homeland but the different sceneries and culture make my life even better in terms of understanding human values.

Yesterday when I watched world news I told my hubby that sometimes I just couldn't take it when all the media is telling and exposing to the world that middle-east countries are always at war, centre of violence. It looks like nobody can ever live a happy life in this part of the world. It is totally wrong, we enjoy our life more than before, we feel safe moving around even in the middle of the night. Women don't have to worry carry handbags/slingbags coz no such motorider to snatch your bags....We can safely withdraw our money at any ATM vendor even if the machine is in the middle of the busy street ( memang banyak ATM machine tengah-tengah jalan , betul-betul tengah jalan!! ). Never heard of 'pecah-rumah' here at my housing area.

Last week when I was at KLIA before coming back to Amman I met a couple from Ipoh who were going to Beijing. I invited them to come and visit Jordan. THe first question the husband asked, " Is it safe there ? " " Of course ," I replied. I don't blame them of having that kind of perception when it comes to safety travelling to this part of the world.

Well, for those out there who are 'phobia' of arabs and arab countries, I advise you to come here so that you can feel the great life that most arabs are having in this part of the world...it is surely safe and sound here in Amman....I luv Amman.

Indahnya hidup ini...

Pagi yang dingin dengan hujan membasahi bumi I mulakan hari yang ini dengan rasa syukur tak terhingga ,Alhamdulillah kerana dapat bersama suami dan anak-anak sebagai pelengkap kehidupan . Pagi ni baru terasa sihat dan segar selepas pulang dari tanahair, semalam sewaktu ke safeway membeli grocery rasa macam nak pitam dek kerana sesak hidung dan panas muka dan badan, rupanya I demam(jarang sekali demam ). So last night I masuk tidur awal selepas ambil ubat dan pagi ni bila segar sikit my darling hubby minta buatkan breakfast. I tengok my kitchen dah clear/bersih , semua pinggan-mangkuk siap berbasuh. My darling yang buat semua tu malam tadi sebab dia tau i memang betul2 tak larat .So I prepared our breakfast , roti+sausages+tauhu goreng+cucur serunding ikan bilis +kuah kacang sebagai pencicah +jagung manis +biskut tart nenas+milo+air suam. Lama tak breakfast bersama darling..ingat dulu di kemaman kalau hari sabtu kami (hanya my hubby n I ) akan breakfast di luar , hampir semua restoran di kemaman ,kerteh, cherating telah kami kunjungi .Kat amman ni jarang ada restoran yang buka awal pagi , itupun kalau ada breakfastnya hanya roti n khumus(kacang hijau blended), so memang I kena masak/sediakan breakfast.

Pagi semalam kami ke pusat servis motorola di Garden street sebab my hp yang my hubby baru beli di abu dhabi tiba-tiba screen nya blank. Dah cuba betulkan tapi masih camtu. Oleh kerana hp ni intn'l warranty kami ke kedai motorola di amman. Nak cari kedai ni satu hal, pekerja dahlah cakap english merangkak-rangkak, lepas tu dia kata cabel rosak dan suruh kami ke motorola outlet yang satu lagi di 8th circle yang agak jauh dari situ. Then my hubby kata kenapa tak diaorang yang contact dan uruskan hal tu, dia kata tak boleh, kami kena uruskan sendiri. Pastu my hubby minta dia tanyakan agen yang satu lagi samada diaorang ada kabel yang dimaksudkan agar kalau kami pergi nanti ada alatnya. Pekerja tu kata dia tak boleh call agen tu sebab they are under 2 different companies(motorola agents !!! ). I pun masuk campur and minta dia call jugak that agent. I kata I tak deal dengan company sesiapa but I deal dengan agent motorola.Akhirnya pekerja lelaki di situ called and di sana pun tak de kabel yang dimaksudkan. Then dia kata kena tunggu dia order kabel and dia akan call me bila ada alatnya nanti tapi tak tau berapa lama. I kata I baru beli hp ni tak sampai 2 minggu dan memang perlu gunakan hp . Selepas berdolak-dalih dia akhirnya kata dia akan cuba baiki my hp dan akan siap dalam masa satu jam.....???? Memang siap dia baiki dalam masa sejam. Memang arab ni pemalas, tak pandai business, kaki putar belit. I bagitau my hubby arab ni banyak persamaan dengan orang melayu, selalu cari alasan malas nak buat kerja. Kalau arab ni kerja dengan tauke cina baru dia tau, lama dah kena buang kerja.

After that kami ke al mawed travel nak refund air ticket sumayyah(kami ambik return ticket) sebab dia tak de cuti panjang nak balik ke amman tahun ni. Mr Tariq agen al mawed yang dah biasa dengan kami selesaikan urusan ni dengan baik.Then I booked ticket untuk safiyyah yang akan balik ke amman jun ni dari ukraine dan akan ke sana semula akhir ogos. Booking jugak untuk 3 sahabat safiyyah yang akan ke amman cuti nanti sebelum pulang ke malaysia dari sini. I booked jugak seats untuk kami sefamily except sumayyah julai nanti nak melancong ke Egypt. Harap semuanya berjalan lancar sebagaimana yang dirancangkan.

Pagi semalam Zaid started 'jelajah jordan 07 ' tour yang dia kendalikan . Alhamdulillah kali ni seramai 96 peserta/pelajar mengikuti tour pakej selama 5 hari. Harap semuanya berjalan lancar.

Safiyyah dah habis exam, alhamdulilah semuanya lulus. Dia tengah bersiap nak melancong ke Italy, Hungary, Poland bermula 2 feb ni bersama 10 orang yang lain. Happy holiday dear.

Sumayyah baru selesai mid-term exam dan baru balik dari ski-trip yang dikelola oleh pusat bahasa KNU selama dua hari di Phoenix Ski Resort 4 hours from daegu and 1 hour from seoul. Lenguh-lenguh badan dibuatnya but dia happy sangat puas main salji.

Izzat dan Mimi dah mula bercuti 2 minggu dan kami semua akan join ' jelajah syria 07' tour dari 4- 8feb ni juga dikendalikan oleh zaid. 9 feb my darling hubby akan pulang berkelana di island kesayangannya........

Suka-duka di Malaysia.....

Arrived in Amman at 2.30pm yesterday afternoon,Alhamdulillah.12 days in Malaysia macam-macam perkara yang sempat dialkukan dan dirasai. Sayu meninggalkan keluarga tercinta terutama bonda/ bonda mertua yang sedang uzur dimakan usia .Doa diiring semoga diberi sedikit kekuatan mengharungi kehidupan di usia senja,InsyaAllah.

16Jan07, 1.30pm Etihad Airways landed at KLIA and guess what..it's the first etihad flight coming to malaysia from abu dhabi( I transit at abu dhabi from Amman). Before the aircraft came to a complete stop, kereta bomba airport meraikan ketibaan kami dengan 'merenjis mawar' . My seat was dekat window and the kereta bomba menghalakan hose dan terus siram etihad sampai habis air. Masa tempah tiket I ingat I hanya naik flite etihad bilangan ke 2, rupanya it's the launching flite. Masa turun dari flite I disambut dengan deretan truly malaysians with truly malaysians costumes and dapat gift pax visit malaysia year 2007. It was such a very warm welcome(bukan sambut I, diaorang sambut a bunch of young emirates (bising bagai nak rak duduk dalam flite macam tak pernah naik flite!!! ) yang datang sebagai vips for this launching flite. Tapi tak pelah , I tumpang happy dapat sambutan macam tu setiba di tanahair, siapa sangka kan.... I terus ambik KLIA - Ipoh express bus and reached Ipoh at 6.30pm. Memang I sengaja nak naik bas sebab I balik sorang and pulak tu hari bekerja so tak nak bother sesiapa datang jemput sebab bas direct sampai Ipoh only cost me RM42. Dalam perjalanan ke Ipoh I rasa happy sangat sebab apa tau ...I dapat lihat pohon-pohon hijau seluas mata memandang..I rindu betul pada pokok/pohon hijau.....

Sampai rumah my mom I was shocked to see my mom had lost a lot of weight. She's been sick for almost a year (penyakit misteri/reality ) , I could see her tears flowed down her cheeks and she said that she's been waiting for me to come home because she missed me a lot.I didn't say anything except hugging and kissing her.Alhamdulillah sampai juga I ke rumah yang telah agak lama tidak dikunjungi berjumpa dengan orang tercinta.

My mom sihat dari segi fizikal sebab jantung dan darah tinggi dah ok lepas buat pembedahan memasukkan belon and dia pun dah boleh berjalan dengan sendiri tanpa mengunakan kerusi roda dan bantuan Ina helper Indon yang jaga my mom. Cuma I rasa my mom is not that spriritually/mentally well sebab sejak tahun lepas puas sudah my siblings berubat nak baikkan my mom selepas dirasuk /saka (I tak tau nak expain but it was awful !! ) So, bila I cakap dengan my mom dia macam tak berapa concentrate and kalau dia nak kan sesuatu dia insisted nak jugak apa yang dia mahu.She's too bossy with Ina the maid.She eats a lotttt. I bersabar sampai hari ke 6 I mula bersuara apa yang I rasa tak betul(terlalu complicated, biarlah I saja yang tau !! ) Samada my mom terima atau tak pendapat dan teguran I terpulanglah.Lepas tu I hanya perhatikan danbiarkan apa yang dia lakukan sebab rasanya tak berbaloi I tegur sebab I akan balik dan dia akan tinggal di situ balik seperti sedia-kala. My brother masih dalam proses untuk memulihkan ingatan my mom, tapi menurutnya mom banyak dah baik nya berbanding setahun yang lalu yang my brother described "mak macam exorcist "...kesian my mom.

I sempat ziarah my mom-in-law yang sekarang ni tinggal di bota bersama kakak ipar I selepas my biras meninggal dunia 3 months ago. My mom ni kena stroke 12 tahun yang lalu(waktu izzat masih kecil ) dan pernah tinggal di rumah I hampir 3 tahun di kemaman . Serupa macam my mom, dia tinggal dijaga oleh an indon maid. I tak sangka bila I salam n peluk dia, my mom menangis /meraung dan merangkul tubuh I dengan sebelah tangan (hanya sebelah yang boleh bergerak ) I memang tak sangka. Dia tanya I " Berapo lamo dah ekau duduk sano?" ...sambil meraung (dia orang rembau )...dia kata lagi " Tengoklah omak ni, tangan tak boleh bergorak do, kaki tak dapek nak bangun sendiri "..sambil menepuk-nepuk kaki dengan sebelah tangan yang boleh bergerak.I tak dapat menahan sebak dan sedu, airmata menitis jatuh di pipi , sedih dan pilu(masa menaip ni pun sebak menitis air mata teringat dialog ni !! ) I hanya menjawab menenangkan dia bahawa tak pe dia tak perlu susah-susah nak buat apa-apa sebab akak dan helper ada untuk menjaga mak. I doakan agar mak serta akak tabah dengan apa yang berlaku.Amin.

I hanya sempat ziarah bapa/mak saudara yang berada di Ipoh , itupun atas jasa baik my brother yang ambik cuti untuk bawa I berjumpa keluarga . I tak sempat menjengok my house and friends di kemaman ( takpelah rumah memang ada orang yang menjaganya ) sebab masa hanya sebentar (12 hari termasuk travelling days ) dan my darling hubby tak benarkan I ambik my car di kemaman and drive my self macam dulu-dulu sebab dia bimbang kat malaysia musim hujan.Jadi pergerakan I sedikit terbatas dan terbantut.Apapun back to my ultimate plan balik malaysia nak ziarah mak yang uzur.

Semasa 2-hour-outing dengan my sister-in-law nak cari barang-barang keperluan untuk dibawa balik ke amman, akak bawa i makan laksa di warung di bawah pokok di kawasan silibin, ipoh. Waktu I duduk menanti makanan yang dipesan tiba, I terasa amat kekok dan terasing, tak tau kenapa. Suasana persekitaran yang amat asing bagi I ...dah berzaman I tak makan di warung ( even waktu di malaysia I tak biasa )dengan wanita/perempuan/lelaki/tua/muda bergurau dan bercakap bahasa perak (walaupun I orang perak I tak tau cakap perak sebab tak membesar di perak ) I terasa macam terkena cultural shock....Kiralah mana ada orang arab di amman yang duduk-duduk makan sesama lelaki perempuan di tempat terbuka ..begitu asing...rasa macam oh my god, this isn't right, this isn't my way...rasa macam tak boleh nak kunyah makanan....memang I tak habis pun makan...Lepas tu masa sumayyah called me from korea, i told her what happened that day ...dia pun kata ...patyutlah orang malaysia yang kahwin dengan orang arab yang tinggal di negara arab memang ikut cara hidup arab...tak de macam melayu..agaknya kalau lama lagi ai tinggal di negara arab.. i pun akan jadi orang asing di negara sendiri. Suasana begini i tak rasa bila masa i balik dari Us dulu sebab tiada perbezaaan ketara antara US and malaysia in terms of social/behaviour/culture....

I jugak sempat ke KL berjumpa my eldest sister and my youngest brother yang. Akhirnya kami bertemu 5 beradik setelah sekian lama tidak berkesempatan berkumpul bersama . Kami bergambar dan bersembang(my mom pun ikut sama). I jugak sempat bertemu brother Zairemy yang(anak angkat my sister / senior yang bantu gsumayyah di korea yang telah tamat belajar dan telah mula bekerja di Malaysia )...Gembiranya dapat bersama family.

Itulah lebih kurang apa yang sempat I lakukan dan alami di Malaysia dalam masa 10 hari.Walupun banyak 'benda' yang i tak dapat rasa/beli (biarlah rahsia) sebab I tak nak menyusahkan orang melayan I , lain masa I balik dan layan diri sendiri dan beli dan rasa apa yang I ingin makan/rasakan .I tak terkilan sebab yang penting I dapat berjumpa mak dan famili. Bagi sahabat-sahabat yang I tak sempat jengok dan ziarah harap kalian mengerti dan faham situasi I..insyaallah bila i berpeluang kembali ke tanahair i akan pergi berjumpa kalian semua .

Kepada kak idah/abang amir, kak nor/abang khalil, abang chaa/kak yam, jai/lynn, akak noriah, ina helper, dan semua saudara mara dan jiran-jiran di tanahair yang telah bersusah payah menjaga dan merawat mak berdua, I ucapkan jutaan terimakasih di atas segala jasa kalian , hanya ALLAH yang dapat membalasnya. I memohon jutaan maaf kerana tidak dapat bersama kalian menjaga mak tapi ketahuilah DOA sentiasa dipohon agar mak sembuh dan kalian beroleh berkat dari ALLAH MAHA PENYAYANG.

Gonna miss u....loveujordan

Tomorrow I'll be going home for 10 days.

Can't wait to touch down at my beloved homeland and see all the green forest again. Miss all the green natural beauty.
I'll go back to Ipoh to meet my sweetheart darling mommy and mommy-in-law and the rest of the family, InsyaAllah.

I'm not gonna 'waste' my time blogging from homeland since time is so much precious back there especially when I only have 10 great days to spend .

So, I'll see you again by end of the month, gonna miss u my dear blog, loveujordan.

Vogue Bloggers Companions...Luv U All

Pagi ni rasa malas nak buat kerja rumah , zaid pun dah pergi ke mutah semalam dan akan balik hari ni, izat dah ke sekolah , hari ni ada exam english,mimi pulak dari malam tadi demam dan batuk dan dua kali muntah . So, I pun tak lena tidur malam tadi. Tengah hari nanti my darling hubby tiba dari Abu Dhabi ,welcome home .Semalam dah perap ayam and daging ,dah masak nasi impit dan kuah satay...nak buat satay nanti tunggu izzat balik sekolah sebab dia memang suka bakar satay.

Dari malam tadi I dah set nak write this blog early in the morning and after this baru nak kemas rumah sikit dan sediakan apa-apa yang patut nak sambut my darling hubby balik setelah hampir 2 1/2 bulan tak bertemu tapi call/chat hari-hari.

Topik yang I nak ceritakan ni biasa je tapi saja I nak tulis for my own sweet memory.

Nak cerita pasal bloggers and comments.

I mula tulis blog tak berapa lama sebelum my daughter sumayyah bertolak ke korea . INi kerana I dapat rasakan yang I akan kesunyian selepas ketiadaan maya dan salah satu cara nak hilangkan bosan dan sunyi serta rindu, I start tulis blog (sept 11 , nice date hah !! ) Dalam pada tu I adalah juga baca blog dari serata negara terutama sekali malaysian yang tinggal abroad. Ada beberapa blog yang buat I acap kali kembali mengikuti perkembangan /perjalanan hidup mereka..antaranya dendam perantau sebab I prihatin dengan masalah this blogger and blog dia ni agak kelakar jugak cara pengolahan bahasa yang digunakan. Aku sebutir pasir satu lagi blog yang I selalu ikuti sebab I love travelling and this future doc in dublin has been travelling to so many places and the travel journal gives a lot of travelling info to me.

Kalau fotopages I suka masuk wazari fotopages sebab gambar-gambar dalam tu cantik/unik/berkualiti.Nak tengok resipi I masuk kak yong's digital kitchen fotopages, wow gambar dan resipi dalam tu rasa nak makan masa tu jugak.

Itu antara blogs yang I suka baca dan lihat tapi I belum pernah komen dalam mana-mana blog sehinggalah I terjumpa gang bloggers yang vogue ni. I ingat hari tu I sengaja nak cari kalau-kalau ada kawan-kawan yang belajar di washington dc tempat i belajar dulu tulis blog, so I taip baju melayu raya washington dc...then i nampak this blog, i klik under from the governer's desk, I read thru the blog and oh boy, I love this blog. I went on reading the achieves and masa tu tengah chatting dengan sumayyah , I bagitau sumayyah, you know what, I think I've found a blog yang best, yang matang and cerita bagus.sumayyah jawab, "wah cik ina (students kat sini panggil I cik ina ) dah jagi ketagih baca blog ni."

Sebelum ni I tak pernah hairan nak beri komen or baca komen orang tapi bila sampai kat blog gab ni I terasa nak baca komen yang bloggers lain tulis sebab bila cerita bagus mestilah komennya juga bagus. When I masuk je kat ruang komen, tu dia.... penuh 'makcik/pakcik ' bloggers bagi komen . I bagitau sumayyah yang penuh makcik/pakcik bloggers bagi komen dan I hairan macamana diaorang ada masa nak bagi komen. Sumayyah hanya kata," ha mama pun nak jadi pengomen jugak ke ,sibuklah nanti cik ina cyber ni." I ketawa je. Sedar tak sedar jari-jemari ni tekan keyboard and I dah 'terkomen' dan menjangkit kat blogs yang lain yang berada di dalam linkungan from the governer's desk.

THen 2 days ago I ingat dah tak nak komen takut ada yang terasa hati jika I tersilap komen, tapi bila baca the bakpo blog jari ni nak jugak komen. Mungkin I need to slow down komen-mengomen tapi rasanya tak salah sebab I 'm telling them my true feeling when I read their blogs. Selagi I rasa perlu komen I 'll continue komen.

As for my blog, is still a no comment blog as it is for own memoir. So, to all bloggers yang I give my comments, you guys are truly vogue bloggers, I wish oneday I could meet you all as you are also my dearest online companions.

May Jannah Their Destiny

Al Fatihah to all these three wonderful figures who passed away yesterday.

1. Hj Zaid , my neighbour in kemaman. He involved in a car accident in mersing and died on the spot yesterday at 4pm malaysian time. I've known him for more than 7 years and he is a very helpful person and a devoted surau committee. When my husband was not around, he's the one who always cared about me and my family.I remember when I had an accident in dec 2004 and my husband was away in vietnam, I was so panicked and didn't know what to do, so this arwah zaid was the one who calmed me down and went along with me to the police station to lodge a report and wrote the report for me. When my housing area was flooded ,he was incharged with the victims evacuation since he is working with a marine company in kemaman ( the company provided the boats ). My neighbourhood and the surau will surely miss him and I personally owe him a million thanks for what you've done to us. INsyaAllah, we'll meet again in the hereafter.

2. Ustaz Tahir, my neighbour in Ipoh passed away after 4 days in a coma after he collapsed in the bathroom.He is a very good friend of my parents and he has a travel agency especially for umrah package. My mom said he was not feeling well for quite a long time and this year he didn't go for hajj due to his poor health.

3. Makcik Sarah, also my neighbour in Ipoh passed away after been in bed for almost a year because of her high blood pressure. I've known this makcik since I was small. She is famous in the neighbourhood since she has 18 children, yes 18 , her own children with only one dearest husband, arwah cikgu zul. 14 boys and 4 girls including 2 pairs of twins. Makcik sarah has a very big bungalow and I forget how many rooms there are in that bungalow. When I was small I used to play with the children and one I thing I noticed makcik sarah is a very kind mother and all her children are closed to her, she never yelled at them and almost all the children are good-looking, makcik sarah is a pretty lady .I'm sad when my brother told me the sad news because I'll never see her again when I'm back in Ipoh this coming Monday.

I'll always pray that all of you will be granted with the most beautiful jannah ever.......... INSYAALLAH. AMIN

Is your landlord OKAY ??

I've just finished cooking roti jala and zaid is still in the kitchen cooking his beef curry to be eaten with my roti jala. I purposely asked him to cook the curry since it's been a long time I last tasted his cooking. Well, he is living with me now and I always do the cooking. He's been living with his friends for four years and he is such a good cook, you name it, zaid can cook it for you.

Last night Luqman or Loko , zaid's friend spent a night at my house. He is a Singaporean who studies at Mutah U and yesterday a delegation from Singapore came to Jordan and Loko is requested to be their tour guide/translator/coordinator while they are here in Jordan. Tonight Loko will spend another night at my house and I want him to taste my roti jala because I didn't have a chance to serve him anything this morning because he left my house early in the morning to meet the delegation at downtown Amman.

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Yesterday afternoon, I went to the housing bank to deposit my house rent since my landlord is staying in Ramtha (80km from amman ). Mr Jamal Ramdan is my landlord and he is working as a custom officer at the Jordan/Iraq border. I'm so lucky to have him as my home owner coz he is so kind and has never been fussy on anything. Three weeks ago he called zaid to tell that he had a business in amman that day and that he's coming by just to send us some olive oil his wife made for us. Zaid had class at that moment and Mr Jamal came and rang the bell, gave salam and handed me the olive oil and greeted salam again and left. He knew that I was alone and of course he would not step inside my house knowing that zaid was not in. On eidil adha he was the first to call zaid and greeted eid mubarak to us.




Izzat and mimi at my housing area.

Alhamdulillah , I said I'm lucky because it's hard to get a very kind landlord here in Jordan because most of them are very fussy indeed. They check their houses anytime they want, screen for any dust on the tv set and some of them do not let visitors to stay overnight .My next door neighbour had once asked me whether I own the house that I'm staying because she never see my landlord comes to ask for the house rent and check the house.

During eidil adha gathering at my house, one of the guys was telling us that it's a must for any malaysian to move for a few times here in jordan because of fussy landlords. He said it's a must, I told him so far I'm more than happy with my homeowner and there's no reason to move into another house. He was a bit shocked when I said that. Well, maybe it's just my luck!!

I really hope my landlord stays the way he is and we can live here happily ever after.......

Usia Muda ?? Usia Tua??

Just got back from the police station to have my visa stamped for another 2 months . The police station is just 3 minutes by taxi , but I'm not willing to walk because my housing area is very hilly.

Setiba di hadapan balai polis, kami (I, mimi n zaid )disambut oleh police guard yang amat muda dan setelah mendaftar nama dan manyatakan tujuan, kami di benarkan masuk menuju tingkat kedua tempat sambung visa. Di atas ada 3 orang polis yang bertugas, seorang man and 2 women. Cantiknya kedua-dua policewomen tu dan mereka bekerja dengan senyuman , beberapa soalan ditanya dengan bahasa yang lembut dan sehingga selesai urusan masih tersenyum(polis backhome susah senyum!! ). Salah seorang dari mereka tanya adakah I kakak Zaid( wow!! entah kali ke berapa soalan macam ni ditanya pada I atau pada Zaid )I kata I mama Zaid, kedua-dua bisik-bisik kata mudanya mama zaid.Kemudian kami turun ke tingkat bawah untuk mendapatkan tandatangan pegawai atasan yang bertugas, terus je pegawai polis tu tanya zaid, adakah I isteri Zaid dan mimi anak Zaid...wow!!wow!! kali ke 2 dalam masa beberapa minit soalan perasan ditanya...kali ni lagi hebat perasan, tadi kakak ..yang ni isteri...( tapi kalau mimi anak zaid=my cucu, ish,ish complicated )yang kelakarnya baru pagi tadi zaid bagitau sumayyah yang kawan-kawan dia di mu'tah ramai yang kata dia baby-face, cute. Ha I kata pada zaid sapa yang baby-face ni , zaid ke mama. Those 2 questions yang polis tu tanya membawa dua maksud...samada I nampak muda atau zaid nampak tua...INi dah kali ke berapa orang jordan sangka I isteri/kakak Zaid sebab kami selalu jalan bersama sebab my hubby jarang ada di sini. Bila I bagitau my hubby tentang hal ni seperti biasa response dia...laaaa . Mungkin sebab I kahwin muda semasa tahun 2 U and dapat zaid tahun 3, so sekarang ni umur I double umur zaid. Apapun dalam masa beberapa tahun mungkin orang akan nampak yang I memang mama zaid, yang takut jangan orang sangka I nenek mimi...eeee tak naklah sampai macam tu...Let's forget about this tua/muda/perasan/perasaan things for a moment.

Malam tadi my students , nain, fadli and his wife saadiah spent a night at my house. Since saadiah had finished her studies, she has to renew her visa here in amman. Last night we had a good time together, eating and chatting and before they left for the immigration dept this morning , we also had a joyful moment during breakfast. Even though thay used to be my students back home but they are now adults and dah jadi macam kawan-kawan. We shared banyak cerita masa dulu dan cerita terkini. Tak sangka begitu cepat masa berlalu, anak murid yang dulunya suka buat lawak dalam kelas dan begitu creative semasa my drama project, kini telah beristeri dan bakal menimang cahaya mata dalam masa terdekat, fadli you are still funny but now you can talk on any topic seriously.

Memang anak-anak murid I ramai yang telah berumahtangga dan beranak-pinak.LAst I jumpa my first batch pelajar di kemasik , terengganu, semasa jamuan alumni mereka (mereka jemput I sekali ) seorang pelajar I dah ada 6 orang anak dah waktu tu (3 tahun lepas ) sedang mengandung anak ke 7. I amat rapat dengan anak-anak murid sebab I mengajar kelas menengah atas yang tidak berapa jauh beza umur mereka dengan umur I. Bila my hubby out-station I selalu ajak a group of girls tidur di rumah. I tahu di mana rumah mereka dan kenal keluarga mereka, ada yang susah, ada yang ditinggalkan bapa , ada yang sakit, ada yang anak yatim, ada yang mak ada skandal dengan lelaki lain dan macam-macam perkara yang membuatkan I amat prihatin dengan segala masalah yang mereka hadapi. I jadi macam kakak dan ibu tempat mereka mengadu dan bermanja.

Apapun I'm happy sebab hampir semuanya menjalani kehidupan yang agak baik, Alhamdulillah. Memang kita tidak boleh mengharapkan mereka semuanya berjaya ke menara gading kerana masing-masing mempunyai latar-belakang keluarga yang amat berlainan. I learnt a lot about kesusahan hidup melalui mereka kerana ramai dari mereka berbapakan nelayan /kerja kampung yang tidak menentu imbuhan hariannya. Semua kenangan manis dan pahit bersama mereka akan I semat di sanubari, betul kata pepatah ' WHILE YOU TEACH YOU LEARN' .

Semakin meningkat usia , kita yang dulunya pelajar, kini masih lagi belajar dan belajar , biarpun bukan secara formal di dewan kuliah dan sekolah , kita belajar erti kehidupan secara live , praktikal seharian, knowing people and their behaviour, dan macam-macam lagi yang tidak akan berhenti sehingga ke akhir hayat. Biar berbeza usia dengan anak-anak, anak murid, sahabat handai namun we are all the same, semuanya makhluk ciptaan Allah yang setiap satunya unik.

Berita Terkini....

* In less than a week my darling hubby will be coming back and this time he has 28days to spend with us(only 17 days with me since I'm going back to my hometown for 10 days). It seems a bit odd, hubby coming back and I'm off to Ipoh but this is our best solution. He'll take care of my kids (mimi and izzat still have classes until late january) I can't let Zaid look after them since he's also taking classes at british council.

The reason I'm going back is because both my mom and my mom-in-law are not doing very well. My hubby had gone back home last Ramadan and he suggested that it would be nice if I could visit both my moms. So after a long discussion, my hubby and I came up with this idea, he comes back and I go back.....He gives me 10 days to spend my time in malaysia...So I have a chance to meet my family backhome and can still be with my hubby after coming back and join the JELAJAH SYRIA 2007 early February organized by my son Zaid.This time we'll have a chance to explore many parts of Syria(I've only been to Damascus,Aleppo ,Dir'aa and Bosra). Hopefully our plan goes smoothly , InsyaAllah.

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* Zaid, my eldest son , had passed his intermediate 1 at british council and tomorrow he'll continue taking the intermediate 2. He had such a high spirit to be able to speak and write good english. He's very fluent in arabic and bahasa melayu. When he expressed he is keen in learning english at british council , my hubby and I gave our 100% support . We sent him to Al Imam international Institute when he was 11 and he became a hafiz at age 13. Then ke took SMU exam at 14 and SPM exam at 15.He entered University of Mu'tah at age 16.He graduated from Syariah Islamiyyah at age 20. So , he is still very young to start any kind of job, it's better for him to be an expert in english before 'diving' into business world(he is keen to be a business man since he's a boy). Maybe one day he'll go back to his hometown ( he was born in Alexandria, Virginia, USA ) and does his business there....Good Luck to you my sweetheart son, zaid.

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* Safiyyah my second child cannot wait to spend her winter vacation in 3 european countries, Italy, Hungary and Poland starting early february. We let her go since she's always very busy studying and have lots of tests,quizzes and exams. Crimea State Medical University or CSMU ( heboh pasal di tarik balik pengiktirafan oleh MMC kemudian diiktiraf semula kepada sesiapa yang masuk 1st year before 31 dec 2004) Sofie is an ex-MRSM student and did her pre-medical course in Ukraine and she started her first year in Sept 2004 , so , she's still ok. However the MMC agenda( ???) had demotivated most of the students st CSMU because even those JPA scholars (my daughter is under FAMA )who did their practical back in Malaysia were treated badly by the hospital staff(macam pelajar csmu tak layak jadi doktor padahal almost all malay students who study there scored excellent results in their SPM!! ) CSMU was established 50 years ago and is the only ex-soviet U yang di recognised by the British medical board..CSMU is ranking the 17th top medical U by WHO in the world...So, whatever happens (nak iktiraf atau tak ) my daughter still studies there because I believe she has lot to gain there. I told my daughter kerja mana-mana pun ada...She could go back to her hometown(she was born in Georgetown, Washington DC, USA) and practise her MD there, InsyaAllah. Good luck in your exam and selamat bercuti my darling Sofie...

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* My 3rd child, sumayyah had started her 2nd level for korean language program(time flies so fast . it's been 4 months now since we kissed goodbye). She was very interested to enter korean university since sekolah menengah lagi so after her SPM we decided to send her to korea. All foreign students have to undergo at least 4 levels of korean language before register for undergraduate courses.So far so good.....she has yet to decide her major for undergraduate next September.. She is very interested in Mechanical Engineering (design) like my darling hubby, so InsyaAllah she'll take ME as her major.Good luck to you, my dear darling Maya.

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* Izzat my 4th child is having his final exam now..all subjects are in arabic except english language. I am so happy because he's doing extremely well in class( he's a brilliant boy ). I remember I once had a special project for izzat ( home-schooling ). I started to teach him at home and even had tuition teachers for him since he was 2 years old. He could read at age 3(malay, english, quran )He had his first katam quran at age 5+. When he was 5, he was with me all the time and one day I passed by a kindergarten , I asked him if he wanted to go to school, he nodded. Then I realised that he missed something, SOCIAL life, he needed friends. So the best place to have friends was going to school.End of my home-schooling project.I still believe home-schooling could produce genius kids.Izzat is eyeing to go to Manchester U (he is MU no 1 fan )in future, InsyaAllah.Good luck to you my soul-mate Izzat dear.

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* Syamimi my darling youngest child....8 years gap.....what more could I ask from Allah...Alhamdulillah..Allahuakbar...she's truly my dear sweetheart and my life...I had the most difficult time pregnant(maybe dah 30+ masa tu !! ) ..My project for mimi, Beijing, China( I love beijing after visiting beijing twice !!).I set mimi's life to start at chinese school... I don't know now because jordan doesn't have any chinese school...well, she's studying at a private arabic school and she can speak arabic now... still long way to go since she's only 4 years old.. My baby mimi, stay cute okay....

Sekian berita terkini , Ummu Zaid melaporkan dari Syariq Al Qurtubi, Amman, Urdun.

KIDS LIGHT UP OUR LIFE.....

I have planned to write about a few arab kids who live in my neighbourhood. So, on their visit to my house last eidil adha I snapped some pics of them .

So, out of ten beautiful kids, only one sometimes a trouble-maker...
BY ALL MEANS , KIDS GIVE US JOY AND LIGHT UP OUR LIFE.

Being a Motivator Again???

Jemputan menjadi motivator kepada ahli PERMATA (Persatuan Mahasiswa Malaysia Mu'tah ) pada awalnya ditolak kerana telah lebih setahun I memencilkan diri di bumi Jordan dan rasa tidak mahu berkecimpung di dalam arena HRM ini lagi . Hidup rasa amat selesa kerana dapat 'berehat' dan hanya melayan diri dan famili sendiri.

Setelah meminta sedikit masa untuk berfikir samada mahu menerima jemputan itu atau tidak I akhirnya I bersetuju menjadi free lance motivator semula . Dengan masa yang diberi amat singkat iaitu hanya 4 hari preparation I kembali mengadap PC mencari bahan yang sesuai untuk dibicarakan beserta aktiviti indoor yang memang I amat suka berkongsi dengan setiap para peserta program . Sewaktu berpindah ke jordan I tinggalkan semua sekali bahan 'motivasi' kerana dalam fikiran tidak akan terlibat di bidang ceramah motivasi ini lagi.

Alhamdulillah dengan bantuan Zaid I dapat menyiapkan bahan untuk slide show dan bahan bercetak .

Malam tadi I menjangkakan hanya sedikit pelajar yang hadir sebab cuaca sejuk. Setibanya di Dewan Wisma Negeri Sembilan, nervous jugak bila mendapati lebih dari 70 orang pelajar hadir. Program solat hajat dan motivasi peperiksaan bermula pada waktu maghrib dan my slot ceramah motivasi bermula pada jam 6.15pm .

Alhamdulillah selesai ceramah, feedback dari peserta amat positive, selama 2jam I berceramah ditemani slide shows dan mind stimulative games I kembali bertenaga dan terasa semacam baru semalam meninggalkan bidang ceramah ini. Ini semua kuniaaan Allah yang telah memberi jalan dan kekuatan melaksanakan tugas kepada yang memerlukan.

Maybe this is a fresh start but I don't know whether I nak teruskan memberi khidmat kepada pelajar malaysia di bumi Jordan ini atau tidak . I just wanna wait and see and kalau ada yang memerlukan bantuan, I might consider to assist. Thank s a lot to PERMATA for inviting me.

Actually I memang amat berminat di dalam bidang HRM ( my major masa kat U pun ) .

Am I keen to be a motivator again???? Keep the answer to myself.........

CIKGU RAHIM IN MEMORY......

This morning I received a message from my darling hubby telling me that Cikgu Rahim ,our dearest neighbour backhome had passed away on the first day of 2007 . He passed away at 1.30am 1/1/07 of chest pain in the middle of the night. Al Fatihah.

He is such a very kind and humble person I've ever known. He and his wife are teachers and they have seven wonderful children. They live such a modest life but they are always happy. Backhome I used to tell my darling hubby that I admire cikgu rahim's life, it looks like they are spending their joyful life at the fullest. Their children used to be my tuition students and they are so nice, they always speak nicely, no bad/rude words ever came out from their mouths. Cikgu Rahim never missed going to our surau for jemaah prayers. My darling hubby also told me this morning that he'll miss cikgu Rahim since he is like our big brother (he is 52 )in our housing area. We'll surely miss him a lot...........(no sight of him walking to the surau in his kain pelikat when we are backhome again !! )

May Allah grant him with paradise, Amin.

Life is too short........no one ever knows ...........
ONLY ALLAH THE ALMIGHTY KNOWS.....

Warmest eid's gathering..........

Today is the 4th day of Eidul Adha celebration, Jordanians are still visiting and greeting each other. I'm quite impress with the Jordanians because most of them don't even care of new year celebration, no party and no wishing. The idea of celebrating new year is by the way coming from the Christians and for me it's not proper to celebrate this occasion especially when we are still in the eidul adha spirit .

Yesterday I held a small gathering at my house. Three families and three bachelors joined the eid's open house. We ate and chatted from noon until dusk and it's such a bless to have them coming since we haven't seen each other for almost 2 1/2 months ( last gathering was during syawal). To ustaz Mujahid, INa, Sagol, Marwa, Aswandi, Azra,Adib, Faizol, Syahirah, Fahim and Sofea.....thank you for coming.

This afternoon Sagol and Marwa invited us for lunch at Sweileh. Ustaz Zaharudin, Khadijah, Uztaz Zul and Diana were also present together with ustaz Mujahid's family.The food was yummy.THanks for inviting.

It's so nice to meet each other because if not for the eid, we seldom see one another. Hope to see them again during winter semester break end of January, InsyaAllah.During that time my darling hubby will already be here in Amman .

Aidil Adha....Pengorbanan is a MUST....

SALAM AIDIL ADHA BUAT SEMUA UMAT ISLAM

Aidil Adha ke 2 di Amman diraikan dengan serba sederhana. Seperti biasa pagi-pagi lagi anak-anak jiran berkunjung ke rumah. I hanya menghidangkan makanan ringan (kek/coklat/kacang goreng/wafer/fruits) untuk mereka kerana juadah Malaysia yang I sediakan seperti laksa Penang beserta nasi impit kuah kacang agak pedas dan memang lidah arab alah dengan makanan pedas. Jika tahun lalu ada yang mencuba lontong yang I sediakan sampai berair mata sebab pedas, tahun ni mereka awal-awal dah surrender tak nak makan laksa yang I sediakan.

This aidil adha terasa sepi tanpa my darling hubby, safiyyah and sumayyah. Gambar raya pun hanya tinggal kami berempat, I, zaid, izzat and mimi. Sayu di hati namun I pasrah dengan realiti hidup ini. I doakan agar the assence of aidil adha hadir dalam diri setiap ahli famili no matter where we are.

I call my darling hubby , dia tetap bekerja selepas solat sunat raya, malam tadi dia dan staff yang lain buat jamuan raya di kabin my hubby. He sounded ok , mungkin dah biasa bekerja semasa raya , dah tugas nak buat macamana.

Then I called my daughter Safiyyah, dia ada di counter supermarket di simferopol, shopping untuk small gathering and makan-makan esok. Harini raya tak de makan apa pun, baru lepas exam and tinggal 1 exam lagi, histologi.Dia bagitau supermarket penuh dengan ukrainians shopping for new year party and celebration tomorrow night.Dia pun bunyi happy je walaupun raya tanpa juadah raya etc.

Lastly I called Sumayyah, dia pun tak raya sebab ada kelas pagi tadi, kelas ganti krismas baru ni. Dia kata dia masak nasi goreng tuna dengan microwave lepas kelas tadi.First time raya haji di Daegu tanpa solat raya, juadah raya dan kawan-kwan nak beraya. A bit touchy but I really hope dia tak sayu and sedih.....

Raya kali ni I kurang ada mood nak ziarah rumah jiran-jiran Arab, mungkin cuaca yang sejuk menyebabkan I 'malas' nak keluar rumah. Cuma tengahari tadi I hanya sempat ke rumah Ustaz Mujahid, pelajar PhD di U Jordan di Sweileh.Sepanjang jalan ke sweileh baru nampak keadaan raya haji di amman macam hari-hari biasa dengan orang ramai di jalanraya , cuma bezanya kebanyakan kedai tutup . Setibanya di rumah ustaz Mimi yang paling happy sebab dah lama tak bertemu kak syahirah(anak ustaz ). Perbualan bersama ustaz dan isteri tertumpu kepada Saddam Husesein execution pagi tadi.Tak sangka begitu cepat hukuman gantung dilaksanakan, di pagi aidil adha pulak tu.

Aidil Adha ke 2 di sini membawa pengertian yang lebih mendalam tentang pengorbanan dalam kehidupan setiap insan Pengorbanan is a MUST for every human being. Semoga intipati 'raya korban' memantapkan diri masing-masing dan tabah menempuh dugaan dan cabaran .Pada ahli keluarga samada yang tinggal sebumbung atau tidak I mendoakan kesejahteraan kalian semua. InsyaAllah setiap pengorbanan yang dilakukan beserta niat ikhlas kerana Allah diberi ganjaran pahala dan syurga di akhirat kelak...AMIN.

bad news.. good news

It's been raining all night and according to the weather forecast it's supposed to be snowing today in Amman. Zaid has just got a message from his friend in Mutah saying it's snowing heavily in Mutah and Tafileh(not far from Mutah). Hoping for the snow to fall......

Yesterday zaid and I spent the whole afternoon in the city center and the weather changed drastically from bright and clear to cold ,cloudy and rain. We had to ride a bus to come back home since all taxis were full. We moved to three different spots to get the the taxi( we had to 'compete' with other passengers to 'snatch' a taxi !!) At last we hopped onto the long bus with 40 seats...I once took this bus with sumayyah early this year just to know how to use public transport in Amman....Yesterday bus-ride was like a sick-tortoise moving in the rain...gosh..it took 1hour 20mins to get from the city center to my house which usually takes only 15-20mins taxi ride. What made me mad when the bus driver stopped at every single bus-stand .....it moved so slowly and stopped every 20 seconds..I was thinking of getting off somewhere and then continue my 'journey' home by taxi, but it was raining and hard to get a taxi since it was also during evening rush-hour traffic jam.

The bus was packed with passengers especially after stopping by the university of Jordan where many students are staying at my housing area. All of a sudden, the driver yelled at a guy at the rear of the bus because he had not paid the bus fare (only 30 kurusy=rm1.60) since he got on the bus using the back door. That guy yelled back saying he couldn't pay the fare since he couldn't move to the front because it was packed with ladies(actually he could pass the money to the passengers until it reached the driver).. Not long after that, the bus stopped and the driver got off and went to the rear part of the bus from outside and asked the man to pay the fare there and then. Everybody became crazy and started making noise...there's a makcik arab grumbling and mumbling to the bus driver...." Yalla..bla,bla,bla........ it's been two long hours in this bus from the city center till now, I wanna get home, hurry up !!! If i take an express bus i'm sure I have reached Aqabah(which is 400km from Amman )..", everybody giggled and laughed.... I didn't really understand what's going on but lucky me, zaid was there to be my translator. Then only I knew that they were also mad with the tortoise-moving bus...I thought that was how the usual/normal slow-coach-bus-ride with very humble/patient passengers on board.No wonder whenever I glanced at my watch, the lady sitting next to me also took a look at her mobile phone to see the time. I finally reached home right before dusk, Alhamdulillah.

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This morning I got good news and bad news from my three daughters , Safiyyah,Sumayyah and Syamimi.


Bad news....
Today Mimi skips school again because of fever and cold. She told me she was asked to rest in class yesterday by her teacher when she didn't feel well.
Good news......I gave her medicine and she is now sound asleep in the living room,Alhamdulillah.







Bad news..."I couldn't answer both oral microbiology questions yesterday 100% correct, I didn't have enough time to do my revision, I have many exams this last two weeks , " Safiyyah in Simferopol, Ukraine told me this morning.
Good news... She passed, Alhamdulilah.







Bad news...."I have to be very careful with my tight budget now because I spent my winter break in Busan and Seoul," Sumayyah in Daegu, Korea exclaimed yesterday.
Good news... She scored high marks for her level 1 korean language and the university granted her with USDxxx scholarship ( cash money) this morning, Alhamdulillah.




I think we have good news and bad news every single day of our lives..It makes our life attractive and lively. Praise be to Allah, The Almighty God.

LATEST GOOD NEWS.....IT'S SNOWING NOW OUTSIDE, ALHAMDULILLAH.
bad news...camne izzat nak balik sekolah, harap kereta ummu khatif dapat jalan dalam snow..INSYAALLAH.

Islam ....25Dec....Christianity...

25 December adalah tarikh yang diraikan setiap penganut christian saban tahun tidak terkecuali penganutnya di bumi Jordan. Mungkin ramai yang tidak sedar dan tahu bahawa bangsa arab juga ramai yang beragama christian. Jiran arab sebelah kiri rumah I dan jiran selang 2 buah rumah di kanan juga arab beragama christian.

Bandar Madaba yang terletak 35km dari downtown Amman adalah sebuah bandar yang majoriti penduduknya beragama Christian. Terdapat berpuluh churches di Madaba dan salah satu church yang tertua di dunia juga wujud di Madaba.Pope juga pernah hadir di Mount Nebo, Madaba disambut ribuan penganut christian.Bagi pelancong Christian memang tidak sah lawatan ke Jordan jika tidak mengunjungi bandar Madaba .

Agak sukar membezakan antara arab muslim dan arab christian kerana dari segi fizikal tiada beza. Selalunya penganut Christian di sini hanya dikenali melalui family names(sukar juga!!). Pengalaman selama tinggal di Amman menyedarkan diri ini bahawa fizikal dan cara berpakaian tidak melambangkan agama yang kita anuti. Contohnya, sudah banyak kali I ditanya "Are you muslim?" sedangkan tudung di kepala dan jubah membalut tubuh yang bagi I secara jelas menunujukkan yang I beragama Islam. Tidak bagi mereka kerana bertudung dan berjubah hanyalah budaya arab yang kebanyakan arab mempraktikkannya dalam kehidupan seharian terutama di musim winter . Mula-mula terfikir juga , kenapa tanya , tak nampak ke yang I bertudung dan berjubah.... rupanya itu pakaian bangsa arab bukan pakaian untuk muslim women sahaja.

Kebebasan beragama amat ketara di sini dan masing-masing menghormatinya . Mereka hidup aman damai dan tidak mengganggu sesama sendiri.Di Abdali(downtown )Amman terdapat sebuah church yang besar terletak betul-betul bersebelahan Masjid Negara Jordan . Pelik tetapi benar, waktu subuh di kejutkan dengan azan dari masjid negara dan selepas matahari terbit kedengaran loceng berbunyi dari christian church di sebelah.

Walau bagaimana pun perlu diambil ingatan bahawa golongan orientalis dan golongan christian sendiri sedang rancak menjana dan menyampaikan dakyah fahaman masing-masing dengan tujuan melemahkan umat islam sedikit demi sedikit . Mereka mempunyai sumber dan sokongan yang padu dari pelbagai pertubuhan yang membolehkan mereka bergerak hampir ke seluruh pelusuk dunia.

Amat malang jika kita umat islam masih leka dan lalai dalam dunia yang mengejar material semata-mata tanpa mempedulikan kehinaan dan kejian yang dilemparkan oleh dunia kepada agama dan umat Islam itu sendiri. Kehidupan manusia dan umat islam masakini banyak di pengaruhi oleh agama lain terutama agama Christian dan Yahudi.

Islam sebagai the way of life wajib ditegakkan dan ianya hanya dapat dijelmakan melalui komitmen secara total di setiap lapisan masyarakat secara global.

Bundle Winter Clothing......

It's foggy and very cold indeed ..it's raining this morning . Feel a bless since it hasn't been raining for more than a month. In this time of season , it usually rains almost every other day, but not this year...Alhamdulillah, it finally rains.

This morning I read the online papers that many states in malaysia are being hit by heavy rain and flood...I'm hoping my house back there is/will not be affected,InsyaAllah.

Talking about cold winter season I can't help myself but to ponder and think of how the Palestinian refugees in Baqa'ah camp(I visited this camp last Ramadan ) are dealing with their life in their barely completed 'houses', I did mention that some of the houses didn't even have fully-covered roofs.How they survive, only God knows...feeling so sorry for them, I think they must be wearing so many layers of winter jackets and have their gas heater lit all day long in their 'shelters'.I have this idea in mind because winter jackets are easy and cheap here in Jordan.At least the chances of anybody to be deadly cold of nothing to wear is out of question. One can buy a thick and fairly good quality winter jacket for less than jd5(RM26) . No kidding at all..

Where can you get this low price winter jackets??

BUNDLE MARKET..yes the bundle market and bundle stores offer you all kinds of assential items at extremely low prices.

When I was in malaysia I never thought of buying bundle products due to my detest for the bundle(used shirts/shoes etc.)I had once tried to get a winter jacket before moving abroad at a pasar malam bundle stall..i couldn't bear the 'body-odour' from the bundle stall itself. maybe they sold the shirts without properly washed/cared, well i don't know. I have friends back then who even bought bundle bedsheet/bedspread and I was like...yucky.. they told me that those bedsheet were from luxury hotels and the quality was so irresistable but I didn't believe anything they said.

However, when I moved to Amman last year, I remember my eldest son Zaid brought me for the first time to ABdali Friday Bundle Market .... I was so shocked to see how the people of amman love bundle items..I call amman people because I could see many foreigners ( chinese/europeans/indians/africans and of course malaysians) were at the bundle market and were busy picking and choosing items sold there.My mind started to think ..wow !! bundle is not only for 'poor' people but it's going global.....You could see men in fully-well-built body and high -class attire are buying bundle jackets and boots/shoes...This couldn't be true... First visit there I ended up buying 3 new pairs of socks for mimi...(Memang tak boleh beli lagi bundle masa tu teringat yang pakaian tu bekas orang dah guna!! )

That was a year ago...

Yesterday I asked zaid to come with me to the bundle market...I bought mimi a very nice winter jacket for only jd3. I wasn't feel guilty buying used jacket for mimi because that jacket is a lot more expensive if I bought it from a shopping mall. As for me, so far I only have 2 winter coats and both are brand-new .Even yesterday I saw many beautiful, new-like winter jackets selling for only jd5 but I just wouldn't buy it , lagipun dah ada 2 dan nak pakai dalam masa 3 bulan je..

Other than clothing(including underwears??? zaid kata memang ada kawan2 dia beli 'original-levi's underwears' ) ,the bundle markets sell many other things like books/magazines, household items and so on. So yesterday I bought myself 3 old english best-selling novels and 1 hard cover documentary on the KIng of Jordan for less than jd7 . So next week I'll have a lot of reading on my way...

Let's come back to the baqa'ah camp refugees that I mentioned earlier..I really hope the NGOs (there are many NGOs there but still not enough) are continuously helping and assisting the refugees in this winter season in terms of providing better homes & clothing....

Without bundle life might be different for the people in jordan especially at this time of the year....BUNDLE SURE DOES HELP A LOT...

A wonderful summer holidays..

I've been so relax these past few days, 'hybernating' myself at home..it's so icy-cold outside but still no sign of snow....yet...

Last night before going to bed , I browsed through all my family photos , felt a bit touchy/emotional when I could feel the absence of my three loveones here in Amman; my darling hubby, my two lovely daughters, Safiyyah and Sumayyah. Oh, I miss them all...The last time we were all together as a family was last summer....almost one month(kira semua ada pada masa yang sama coz semua balik tidak sama masa..) It's better than 2005 where only a week to see each other under one roof. However, I'm still very lucky because I still have 3 more darlings at home.

We had such a wonderful summer holidays ...Our vacation started early June (without safiyyah) in Syria and Turkey until end of August(Jordan tour with safiyyah)..It was a bit sad coz safiyyah didn't have a chance to spend her holidays in syria/ lebanon because of the israel/lebanon war.

We decided to have all our journey by land....by bus from amman-damascus- antakya(turkey) -istanbul-konya-(by train )..back to antakya-aleppo(syria)by bus-amman...12 days journey full of great memories..I love istanbul so much..we went to all parts of istanbul by bus, tram and ferry. This city is so beautiful, clean, tourist-friendly, easy-access to any tourist destinations. Toilets are all clean .. a bit expensive(RM1.50 per person/entry..)

Day 1
Departed Amman 10am-arrived in Damascus 4pm
Check in Hotel
Visited Souq Hamidiah+Umawi Mosque+Maqam Nabi Yahya+Maqam Saidina HUssein+Maqam Salahauddin Al Ayubi+Maqam Saidatina Ruqayyah

Day 2
Military Museum
City Center
My students' house for lunch
Continued our journey to Antakya at 10pm

Day 3
Arrived in Antakya(turkey) 4am
Went to city center
Visited Maqam Habibunnajar(pejuang Islam di Turkey )
Bertolak ke Istanbul 11am via Adana and Ankara

Day 4
Arrived in Istanbul at 4.30am
Took a subway to Ansarai then took a tram to Sultan Ahmet station
Check in at youth hostel very near to the blue mosque
Visited the blue mosque+Haghia sophia+city center

Day 5
Visited Karakoy castle
Breakfast at italian restaurant
Took a ferry to Haydarpasya Train Station(bought tickets to Konya)
Shopping at Beyazit Grand Bazaar+ visited Sulaimani Mosque

Day 6
Visited Gulhane Old mosque+ Dolmabahche Palace+Egyptian Spice Market

Day 7
Took a ferry to Uskudar(di asia)..took a bus to Beyleybeyi, a fisherman town across the big bridge which separates asian/european parts of Istanbul..took a ferry to Basiktas and took a bus to Emonunu(city center in front of Sulaimani mosque)and took a tram back to Sultan Ahmet.Viewed beautiful sceneries of Istanbul from every angle....

Day 8
Checked out hostel .
Took a ferry to Haydarpasya train station(left our bags there)
Lunch at kadikoy+ Lepak di park in front of University of Istanbul
Took a train to Konya at 7.20pm

Day 9
Reached Konya at 9.30am* Konya is famous for its Maulana /Darvis/Sufi who perform zikr with music and dancing(it's hard to explain)
Visited Maulana museum/mosque + Maqam of several muslim scholars
So different from Istanbul coz you can see many muslims here(women wearing jilbab are hardly seen in Istanbul)

Day10
Check out hotel
My darling hubby and zaid went to the bus station (otogar) to keep our bags
Visited Sultan Aladdin Park+Aladdin mosque ( built in year 1200)
Took a bus back to Antakya via Iskenderun at 12.50am


Day 11
Reached Antakya at 9.30am
Took a van to Aleppo(Halep) , Syria.
Rented an apartment
Went to Halep Bazaar

Day 12
Visited Halep Castle+ the shopping bazaar
Took a bus back to Amman at 11.30am
Reached Amman11.58 pm ( kat border 3hours)

Tiring but happy...Alhamdulillah everything went smoothly as planned.

Thank you so much to my eldest son ,Zaid who planned the trip so well,it's because he'd been to Turkey 6 times and more than 20 times to Syria.)

Bedouins Tents vs. Arab Mansions

Today is Friday which means no school and I can continue sleeping after dawn. Actually I am not the kind of woman who sleeps after dawn.

Why??

Coz I sleep early at night and if I oversleep I'll get headache .........

Nothing much happens today, Izzat is recovering from cold and cough. Mimi spends her time colouring and playing outside even though it's cold now(she only plays in the evening).This afternoon I went to Safeway to get some groceries for next week.

On the way to Safeway(hypermarket) I pass through many kinds of housing areas including Jubayhah, Madinah Street, University Street and 7th circle. All these areas are well-maintained even though the buildings are almost with all the same colour, earth-tone. The most luxurious area is called Abdoun , where the rich of riches live.They are not living in houses but mansions, yes, large mansions.

I remember on my way to Bosra , Syria last Tuesday I saw a syrian taxi was full of so many stuff at the border. I wanted to snap a picture of that taxi but zaid forbade me from doing so because it was at the border, the police might delete the picture or take away my camera. I could not believe my eyes, the taxi was loaded with a lot of things including tents and firewoods(???). Then my taxi driver told us that the arab family was moving out of Jordan to settle down in Aleppo(Halep), Syria.There were four of them ;the father, mother and two teenage daughters . They were the bedouins, the modern ones because they moved abroad using taxi.

I was a bit 'confused' with what I saw....the arab land where thousands of rich the riches live, yet still many people live in tents.One can even see bedouin tents in many parts of Amman(no bedouins in Abdoun of course). Maybe it's their ways of life.....Are they happy ? They seem happy........

I'm bringing this matter up because I come from a different country with a different culture and lifestyle.I always think my life , my culture and my land are always the superb. However, little by little my thinking starts changing and accepting other people's values.For me, living in a tent is out of civilization, maybe for the bedouins , living in a mansion is against the will of nature.

Well, I guess it's not where you live or what you possess that make you better than the others.... Looking back at the seerah of our Prophet Muhammad(pbuh) I think the most important fact of the highest quality of life is when a person embraces ISLAM and IMAN.

Any Luck Today??........Nope..........

I still remember masa di sekolah dulu mesti ada tajuk karangan tentang ' the unluckiest day of my life'...At that time selalu merapu n mereka cerita sendiri sebab tak pernah pun ada hari yang sebegitu tidak bernasib baik......

Tak sangka pagi ni boleh lah dikira sebagai pagi yang kurang bernasib baik bagi I........

Izzat is having fever and has to skip school ,so I have to send mimi to school by following her in ummu khatif's car...kalau tak ikut dia tak nak pergi sekolah... After sending her to school, I kena pulak tunggu taxi nak balik ke rumah. Tunggu depan sekolah dah lebih setengah jam sebuah taxi pun tak lalu di situ. I nak jalan jauh dan tahan taxi di tempat lain susah sikit..nak tau kenapa? Harini pulak nak bergaya pakai winter boots hitam bertumit tinggi (2inci )yang sumayyah tinggalkan(mungkin sebab tinggi/lama dia tinggalkan),jadi nak berjalan turun naik bukit amatlah menyeksakan.

Tak lama lepas tu nampak ada bas yang menuju ke University Balqa' yang lalu tak jauh dari tempat I berdiri. I buat keputusan untuk naik bas n berhenti kat mana-mana ambik taxi pulak. Maka melangkah dengan hati-hati takut tergelicuk/terpeliot kaki sebab jalanraya banyak batu kecil...huh siksanya...belum sempat I sampai kat atas bukit bas tadi dah patah balik ikut jalan bawah bukit yang lain...nak lambai memang tak logik sebab bas tengah turun bukit memang laju dan jauh dari I......I turun pulak bukit dan terkedek-kedek jalan, kalau ada orang nampak rasanya memang orang ketawa, dahlah berwinter coat colar berbulu, boots bertumit tinggi, body I pulak boleh tahan, boleh jadi plus size model...hahhah....nak ketawa pun ada, geram pun ada ,selalu senang je dapat taxi depan sekolah mimi.

Nak hilangkan letih kaki turun bukit(susah nak control kaki turun bukit dengan kasut tinggi tau !!) I singgah kat a shop and bought susu, juice, pencils untuk mimi n biscuits. I tanya pakcik arab kat kedai tu senang ke nak dapat taxi, dia tak faham english, tapi faham the word taxi...dia kata ok, ok, and dia kata ada bas ke Ragdan(bas stesyen dekat city centre)..dalam hati I kata nak buat apa ke ragdan sebab rumah I memang very far from ragdan and different direction pulak tu. I decided nak tunggu depan kedai pakcik tu..tunggu taxi yang lalu semua penuh, bas yang lalu memang ke ragdan..ada sebuah taxi yang kosong..tup tup budak lelaki arab pulak yang tahan dan terus naik taxi tu..geramnya...mula ingat diaorang tunggu bas....

I buat keputusan nak jalan naik bukit yang menghala ke jalan utama.. Mendaki bukit semput dibuatnya, sejuk, berhabuk, kasut tumit tinggi, berat body lagi..tercungap=cungap sampailah jugak kat jalan utama...proses menunggu taxi bermula sekali lagi...bayangkan dah sejam I tunggu taxi dari awal tadi hingga kini satu taxi pun tak de yang kosong....dalam hati kata tak kira kali ni kalau ada bas yang lalu kemana saja bas tu pergi I akan tahan dan pandai-pandailah berhenti kat mana-mana dan sambung semula dengan taxi nak balik rumah.sedang berkira-kira macam tu lalulah sebuah taxi dan berhenti depan I ( alhamdulillah , legaaaaaa! !)I kata ada jugak rezeki nak balik rumah. Pakcik tu terus buka cermin pintu depan, dia tanya nak ke mana, I kata abu nuseir, dia kata boleh tapi kena pergi U jordan dulu, rupanya ada penumpang kat tempat duduk belakang...Ok, I kata . . I tak kisah asalkan dapat naik taxi sebab kaki dah menggigil dek kerana penat, naik bukit, turun bukit, naik bukit (serik pakai kasut tinggi)....I duduk depan sebab perempuan arab di belakang ada dengan anak dia sekali.

Lega sikit dapat rehat kaki dalam taxi. Bila dah dekat sampai round-about yang tak berapa jauh dari abu nuseir , pakcik kata tak pe ke dia kena hantar perempuan tu dulu ke Jordan University Hospital sebab anak dia sakit. I kata tak pa. Takkan I kata tak boleh sebab perempuan tu yang naik dulu dari I. Kenalah meredah early morning traffic jam...naik bukit ke University hospital...bayangkan hospital ini on top of the hill, memang besar hospital, siap dengan ramai polis yang mengawal lalu-lintas dalam kawasan hospital..(my 1st time here). Masa hantar perempuan arab dan anaknya di hospital, meter taxi jd3.050, perempuan arab tu nak bayar hanya jd2.50...mungkin sebab dia tau yang pakcik dapat extra money sebab dia ambik I sebagai extra penumpang. Dahlah berbalah pulak depan hospital sampai polis datang suruh segera beredar..I tak pasti berapa mak arab tu bayar sebab I dengar dia keluarkan duit syiling..... I tak faham sangat apa dia cakap tapi dia tak nak bayar penuh. Memang meter tu dia yang punya tambang sebab dia yang naik awal dari I.

Lepas dah hantar mak arab teruslah pakcik taxi hantar I ke rumah...sambil tu dia sembang2...tanya suami I arab ke ( semalam pun ada polis arab tanya I the same question, macamlah arab nak sangat kawin muka I ni..) I malas nak bercakap, dia tanya rumah I ke kat abu nuseir, I kata rumah anak lelaki I( kena 'tipu' jugak sebab arab ni bukan boleh percaya sangat!!),bukan rumah I .

At last, sampailah I ke abu nuseir jam 8.35 , exactly 2 hours after sending mimi to school..perjalanan pergi-balik ke sekolah selalunya ambil masa setengah jam saja... Tak habis lagi ...Pakcik taxi nak I bayar jd3.(biasa jd1.7 sekolah mimi ke abu nuseir)...I Mula ingat nak gaduh jugak macam mak arab tadi tapi I dah malas nak kata apa, keluarkan duit terus bayar dan balik rumah....I siap ucapkan syukran kat pakcik taxi sebab dia yang 'baik hati' ambik I jadi penumpang di pagi Rabu yang malang ini.........

Itu sahaja perkara yang tidak bernasib baik yang I lalui hari ni... THE END.

"VISA" trip to Bosra........

I just came back from a 'visa' day-trip to Bosra, Syria. I call it a visa trip since my tourist visa will expire tomorrow..that's why I have to go across the border to renew my visa. Actually , only mimi and I have to renew our visa every 6 months. Zaid and izzat have their student visas which are valid for a year.

It is easy for any malaysian to enter Jordan, by land or by air. You only have to pay JD10(RM52) at the visa counter at any Jordan entrance. That tourist visa is valid for a month of stay. Before it expires, you have to register yourself at any police station to renew your visa n usually they will permit you with 2 more months of stay. That means now you can stay up till 3 months, but if you plan to stay longer, you have to go to the Immigration Dept in amman and they will give you another 3 months visa and pay JD1. However ,after 6 months you have to leave the country (pay JD5 at the exit )before you are eligible for another term of stay. Once you are out of the country, you'll come back and you have to follow the same procedure all over again.The visa that I'm talking about is tourist visa for Malaysians.....


We started our journey at 7.15am...took a taxi from abu nuseir to abdali...took a 'servis'(taxi without meter) to Ramtha(the nearest jordan/syria border).....took another servis from ramtha to dir'aa( syria)..stopped at the border and cleared all the visa status.....took a van servis from dir'aa to Bosra and straight to Bosra Castle. Bosra castle is a place where our Prophet Muhammad(PBUH) had his first trading trip with his uncle Abu Talib years before his prophethood. Bosra used to be a very big romanic castle/city and its rome theatre is so far the biggest outside Italy which remains until today.The castle was built with volcanic rocks and stones and most of the sites are still standing like thousand years before .

We took a horse-wagon to go around the castle.We stopped along the way to see the Fatimah Mosque, The Umar mosque, The Byzantine church, The Romanic water reservoir.....and of course the Huge Rome Theatre (3levels) .We didn't have time to stop by the 'footprint' believed to be of Our beloved Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) because it's far from the horse track.....

We had our lunch at the 'Eastern Sitting Restaurant'.....then got back to dir'aa and took a taxi to ramtha.....this time the driver offered us very low fare (why???) We agreed to hire his taxi but I told Zaid not to pay the fare until we reached Ramtha because I was afraid he would leave us at the border.

What happened then???

Not long after leaving dir'aa the driver stopped by a shop and started talking to another taxi driver and he told zaid that zaid had to ride in another taxi just for 200meter at the border because he might have a little trouble crossing the border. ( mimi and I remained in his taxi)..Later Zaid found out that any syrian taxi is not allowed to cross the border without any passengers.. actually both taxi drivers had to fetch a few students from (Jordan U of Sci. and Tech(JUST) to get back to dir'aa.....So they helped each other by 'separating/dividing' passengers just to get thru the syria/jordan border. It was so funny when 'my' taxi driver called zaid to 'join' back my taxi just 30 meters from the syrian check-point(all the policemen were still before our eyes!!!!) hahahah............

When we reached the jordan territory mimi and I went into a small room to have our bodies scanned...the policewoman asked me whether I'm a chinese(almost all jordanians think most malaysians are chinese...wonder why!!! )I told her that I'm a malaysian., then she looked at Mimi, and she asked me whether' my husband is an arab..( wow!! I was a bit shocked...ada ke pak arab nak muka macam I...mula nak perasan ...0 well , maybe and maybe Mimi is sometimes looks like an arab with her big round eyes and thick black hair .....Who cares, she's our (my darling hubby and I ) daughter lah.....

We got to Ramtha at almost 4pm....Hired another 'servis' back to abu nuseir....Then another 'perasan 'thing happened ....this time the servis driver asked zaid ..is mimi his daughter n i'm his wife....oh my god!... oh my god !! oh no, i tak nak perasan muda....tak nak, tak nak... zaid kata dia nampak tua sangat ke.. hehehe.............let's forget about the perasan perasaannnnnn..........

Alhamdulillah , we reached our house at 4.50pm...it's a fine trip and we are legal tourists for another 6 more months here in jordan, our beloved country...ceh ceh ceh...OUR BELOVED COUNTRY.....

1st. Anniversary.....

Today is my first anniversary leaving my homeland...........

I pun tak tau my feeling but one thing for sure I am now more relax and tenang. Bukan bermakna staying in malaysia tak seronok dan tak tenang tapi bila berubah angin n place memang suasana tenang yang I impikan....... and ...I got it here in amman, Alhamdulillah.

Happy anniversary!!!